CRAZY LOVE

This weekend Fred and I are celebrating our 3 year anniversary.

WOW. I can't wait.

I'm going to make Fred and I drink wine and dance to this song this weeekend

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KKZBDeamZPU&ob=av2e

A SUNDAY AFTERNOON

Brr....it's cold outside! (it's 64° and yes, I'm freezing)

I feel like curling up in my pajamas, snuggie and slippers

BUT,

I'm trying to stay awake for dinner with my bestfriend and her family.
The Redskins are playing the Eagles right now.

I'm going to go watch and support Fred's team(well my team now) in my jersey.

After, I finish playing with my new camera I bought for my upcoming trip to Atlanta,GA.

WHAT I LOVE

Fred is headed down to North Carolina this weekend for his cousin's wedding. We usually spend every weekend together and are always on the go. Even though I miss him right now, I'm looking forward to this weekend. I'm going to relax and get a lot of shopping done. I love weekends like this. Especially on the first weekend of October. The sky is clear and the weather is crisp.

So far my schedule looks like this:

Tonight (Friday) - LAY DOWN. I'm not sure if I've blogged about this before, but since July I've been suffering from shoulder and back problems. After 4th of July my lower back started to bother me and then it moved around to my left side. The pain eventually crept up the left side of my back and has now moved into the middle of my shoulder blades. I've seen two doctors, underwent electric-shock therapy and taken pain medicine. The pain subsided but it still bothers me. I stopped doing weights at the gym thinking that was the problem. However, I've been running about 3miles on the treadmill every night and my back kills me. It feels like I need to have my back cracked or go back to a chiropractor. The only thing that helps is pain pills or laying flat. It's weird. So for the rest of the night, I'm going to lay down and watch tv (Dateline--my favorite!)

Saturday - Mom and I are waking up early to participate in Richmond's Alzheimer's Memory Walk. It's a 3 mile walk and it's for a great cause! I'm glad the weather has cleared up. Plus I can get some exercise in before I spend the day shopping for Atlanta and the whiskey cruise.

Sunday - Maybe go to church with my mom. She goes to church every Sunday and usually I sleep in. Then I'm going car shopping with my dad again! I'm going to look at the Nissan Rogue again and checkout the Chevy Equinox. (I really wish I could afford the Ford Edge or the Acura MDX....one day)

And in response to Denise's blog ...since I'm missing Fred, these are a few things I love about my better half.

Fred is a man's man. He loves beer, trucks, football, baseball, and golf.

(he will have his own ManCave one day)

I love his laugh

I love that he's tall and can wrap himself around me in a bear hug

He's not boring

He's the best snuggler around

I love that he can COOK (because we all know I can't!)

He's sweet and sensivite and always makes me feel beautiful

I just love everything about him.

RAINY DAY

It's a rainy lazy Wednesday. I don't feel like doing anything. (It took me 2 hours to get focused at work today) I usually go to the gym every night, but right now I feel like curling up and watching a movie. (Preferably, Marley & Me). It's my most favorite movie ever. Even though I cry everytime I watch it I can't get enough.

I wish I was in Fred's basement on his comfy couch wrapped up in a blanket with him watching it right now. Not forcing myself to get to the gym.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZCVmTM-WiVM

I actually just teared up watching this video

-pathetic-

COUPLES WEEKEND

Fred and I visited The Holman's this weekend in beautiful Charlottesville. We hadn't seen them since early Spring and wanted to checkout their new home. It's perfect - and everything I want one day in a starter home. We had a great time catching up, hiking, being goofy, and sleeping in. We're already planning another trip back soon. Luckily, I get to see Denise very soon when we hop on a plane to Georgia to visit another girlfriend from college.

Here's 2 pictures of the gorgeous view ontop of Humpback Gap

(amazing view)

(Fred and I on top of the mountain)

I'm glad we got to catch up with friends. I needed a weekend to be silly. Denise and Stu welcomed us into their home and we couldn't have asked for better weather or a better weekend (even though Saturday was cut short!) It was also good to be around another couple who's so in love. I always tell Fred how lucky we are to have the same group of friends who are all in great, supportive, long-lasting relationships. That's important to me. It's good to have friends to talk to, who can relate to you, and will encourage you throughout it all.

COOKING

I'm attempting to bake again this week.

If you know me, you know that I never cook or bake. My mom and dad do all the cooking in our family (I sometimes assist). I can make a mean grilled-cheese, green bean casserole,heat anything up, and bake cookies and cupcakes (while studying the directions on the box hard). I once made Fred chicken alfredo with the assistance of my Italian friend, Gina.

Fred knows that I'm lost in the kitchen. I burnt the easy package mashed potatoes. Fred said it was impossible to burn mashed potatoes - I did. Luckily, Fred is a great cook so I know we'll never starve. Actually Fred and I would never starve, we would just go broke because we'd be eating out a lot or ordering in.

I am so jealous of my friends; Marianne, Gina, and Denise. They all LOVE to cook and bake! They are going to make perfect mothers and wives one day. I promised Fred I would get into the kitchen more and learn to cook some things so I'm a pro in the kitchen like those girls.
That is whyyyy this week and weekend I'm going to try again (I'm hoping to cook a meal for the boys with Denise or at least write down some of her recipes that look easy).

Fred and I are going to visit Denise & Stu at their home in Charlottesville. Last time, I made a dessert that everyone thought was gross (except for Fred, but I'm not sure if he was lying). So this time around I'm going to bake something different.....something like,

Pumpkin & Chocolate Chip Cookies!

Sound yummy? I'm going to the store tomorrow to get the ingredients I need and I'm going to whip up a big enough batch to take to work and to last this weekend. I hope my co-workers, boss and FRIENDS like them.

Wish me l-u-c-k

A BUSY WEEKEND

Fred and I were all over the place this weekend. We couldn't have asked for better weather.

Friday was Adam & Arieanna's wedding: Fred looked oh so handsome in his tux. It was a beautiful ceremony at the Piedmont Country Club on the 18th hole. We had a great time with great friends. Unfortunately, I did not catch the bouquet. This linebacker of a woman was infront of me and I did not want to go up against her (she ended up knocking a girl to the ground for the bouquet, and then getting kicked out later because she was so drunk)

Saturday - we slept in til noon (literally), Fred made us breakfast and we watched football until we had to leave for Leesburg for my firm's bbq. We were in Leesburg for about 3 hours and decided to make an impromptu visit to Tripp & Marianne's in Woodstock. We got back on the road (even though we had to make a few pit stops along the way - we had terrible stomach problems from all the junk we'd eaten since Friday night) for another 40 minutes or so. The sun was setting and the drive was great. I LOVE THE MOUNTAINS. We were so excited to see Marianne and Tripp. We had such a great time with them.

Sunday - we slept in again, Tripp made everyone breakfast and the boys went golfing. Marianne and I went to the Edenburg Town Festival where we ate icecream and kettle korn, walked around and finally headed back home.

Unfortunately the redksins lost yesterday. I don't know how since they had a 17/10 point lead most of the game. This put Fred in a terrible mood. His parents fixed porkchops on the grill while we watched in agony the game in overtime.

It was hard getting up this morning, but it always is for me since I never rest on the weekends. Yes, Fred and I slept in but the 1hour and 15min drive up and back, as well as the late nights really wears me out. I love the weekends where Fred and I do nothing but just lounge. I can't wait for fall so I can snuggle up with him on the couch (in my snuggie) and fall asleep while he watches football.

DRESS

I'm going to a wedding on Friday! I'm kind of excited because:





1. I get to skip work
2. I'm getting my haircut and styled pretty that day
3. Fred's in the wedding so that means he's going to be lookin gooooood in that tux
4. It gives me an excuse to buy a pretty dress!





Sometime between now and Thursday I need to swing by Shortpump mall and pick up something to wear. I plan on hitting White&Black, LOFT, Express, and JCREW.

Any suggestions? The weather is supposed to be in the 70's so I'll probably need to carry a sweater with me.

I love this.

BOYFRIEND

Today's my boyfriend's 25th birthday.

H-A-P-P-Y-B-I-R-T-H-D-A-Y to the greatest guy I know.

I hope I'm celebrating the next 25 years with him.

Friday night we had a birthay dinner wit his parents, sister and sister's boyfriend. We ate lots of steak and crab legs and Carvel icecream cake. I even let him open his birthday presents.

Saturday we hopped on a party bus and enjoyed beautiful weather and Toby Keith.

Today we slept in, ate lunch at Foster's and now Fred is off to the Redskins game.

He even took this entire next week off. (I'm jealous).

GIRLS

Today was one of those days. My shoulder was killing me at work (probably because I used weights at the gym last night knowing that i shouldn't). Annnd on top of that, I also found myself worrying and talking about a girl.

This girl is that girl that girls with boyfriends hates. She's that girl who sleeps around and is the kind of girl you can never trust. I have tried to handle this situation with a sense of maturity. I'm 24 and she's not even 21. She likes to tag along and hangout with my boyfriend's friends. She's that girl that nobody really likes, wonders why she hangs out with us, but somehow is still invited or manages to show up. I hope if you're a girl reading this you can relate. We've all encountered them and we all tell our girlfriends how much we hate them.

I know I shouldn't worry about that girl. All of my girlfriends up in Arlington have delt with her in similar situations. They can't stand her, their boyfriends can't stand her, and now my boyfriend and I can't stand her.

I've never talked about this girl before -in fact I didn't have a problem with her until something happened. I believe I handled the situation like an adult. However, this girl felt the need to tell others about something personal to me. I was shocked and hurt. Why would she do that? Who is she to tell others about something personal to me? She wasn't even there? I kept everything bottled up inside of me. I will not waste my time on this girl. I'm better than this, I'm better than her.

I haven't seen or spoken to her in a few months. I've heard she's been mad for not being invited to certain events (which is good because she needs to hangout with her own group of friends, someone her age).

This weekend is my boyfriend's 25th birthday.

A few other couples and I have gotten a party bus to take to the Toby Keith concert for his birthday.
I just found out that girl is trying to get on the bus. She's not 21 and the bus is only for 21 and up. If she manages to get on the bus (I won't let her because I will call her out in front of everyone) I will be very angry.

I want to have a great day with my boyfriend and friends and not someone who talks about me to others. I know the other girls on the bus have my back and are my real friends, but it still makes me mad that she's trying to tag along to this too. (See in order to get on the party bus you have to go to a website, sign up, and purchase a ticket - apparently she's been asking around how to get a ticket).

I don't want to worry about this. I shouldn't have to worry about this.

I'm older than her.
I have respect for myself.
I know who my real friends are.
I have a boyfriend that loves me
&makes me feel beautiful inside out each and every single day.

FUN

[Here are a few photos from my Labor Day weekend as promised]
One more year and I can move up there...
and maybe just maybe, with my friend pictured above: Brittany







Enjoying drinks by the pool!

Becki and I

I can't believe summer is over.

I'm sure I'll look back on these pictures for warmth

when I'm complaining of the cold weather that's just around the corner.

LABOR DAY

I hope everyone had a fantastic Labor Day!

My work closed early on Friday so I flew home, packed my bags, hopped in Daisy and headed to Arlington. I'm hoping this week goes by fast so I can enjoy another wonderful weekend with boyfriend & friends.

I spent the weekend:

laughing

riding with the windows down

gossiping

helped Krista & Jimmy prepare for a fabulous cookout

dancing

looking at firemen

singing

giving boyfriend lots of kisses

eating

drinking strawberry daqs

watching Charlie & The Chocolate Factory

enjoying the beautiful weather

shopping

saying so long to summer

AND

welcoming football season

{Pictures coming soon}

HOTLANTA

I just booked my plane ticket to HOTlanta!
I can't wait to get wild with these beautiful, funny, and crazy girls.

I hope Georgia is ready for us.

(from left: Emily, Gina, J-buck)(Denise)

(my long-lost friend Ashley)

(and last, but not least Erin!)

WEDDINGS

Say Yes to the Dress

Bridezillas

Who's Wedding Is It Anyway?

True Life: I'm Getting Married

I LOVE THEM ALL.

I'm not engaged and I'm not getting married anytime soon, but I love weddings. I'm that girl who gushes over wedding pictures of friends (and even strangers!) on facebook. I even have a folder on my computer entitled WEDDING. It's where I copy & past wedding ideas, dresses, or photos I like. Creepy I know.

Last week a girl that I work with became engaged. We've become close over the last few months (which we should be, because she's marrying my cousin) and when she told me the news the first thing that came to mind was, "YES! I GET TO HELP YOU PLAN YOUR WEDDING!" Yesterday and today her and I have been looking up churches online, wedding photographers, invitations, and going through her In Style Wedding Book. I love it all. Maybe wedding-planner should have been my calling in life.

For their honeymoon they're going to Greece. I'm super jealous. A couple that Fred and I know are getting married IN Greece next Spring. I wish we were invited. I tell Fred all the time I'm jealous.

I can't wait to plan my wedding in a few years. I'll be even more financially stable and will be able to have the wedding of my dreams.

A WEEKEND AT THE LAKE

((this is a picture of Rachel and I from last summer, you can tell we LOVE the water))

OUR WEEKEND!

This past weekend I went to one of my favorite places, Lake Gaston!

My grandparents have a house right on the water and I've been going there every summer since I was a little girl. My whole family (great uncles & aunts ,friends, cousins, and in-laws) is usually down there most weekends.

My bestfriend from high school, Rachel was able to come with me. I really enjoyed spending quality time with her, since we're both busy with work + boyfriends. Her and I are so freakishly similar that people even ask if we're cousins. Even if we don't see each other very often, when we're together we're always having a good time and laughing (and planning our future weddings).

We even left the lake early Sunday morning and heading down to my other favorite place, The Prime Outlets in Williamsburg! We had a fun time shopping and goofing off.

I was not looking forward to Monday.

I wish the week-end could last forever.

BODY PILLOW

Christmas puppy, Dino, Duke and Polar Bear.

I use to sleep with all 4 of these guys growing up.

Christmas puppy when I was a baby,

Dino the dinosaur elementary school years,

Duke going into middle school

&

Polar bear throughout college.

I couldn't go to sleep if they weren't with me. My parents would have to turn the car around if I left one of them at a hotel,grandparents house, or in some bizzare place. I don't know what it was about stuffed animals but they made me feel so safe. I had to be holding onto them so tightly when I would curl up in bed at night.

I'm 24 now about to turn 25 and I don't have a stuffed animal anymore. I know my big Polar Bear is somewhere in my house, but I don't need him like I use to.

Now I just grab onto my make-shift body pillow even though I have a pink felt body pillow that I ignore on the end of my bed.

The only reason I bought the pink body pillow is because when I was a freshman going into college my roommate and I decided to decorate our room PINK & GREEN. I saw the body pillow at Target and threw it in the basket only because it was pink.

I never once slept with it.

It was big and awkward and it would usually end up on the floor when I would toss and turn at night. I still took the body pillow with me to school all 4 years of college. When I didn't use, someone else would.

When my boyfriend was in middle school he was on vacation with his entire family. Grandparents, Uncles, Aunts, and cousins. They had stopped in this little country store to take a bathroom break, eat, and get back on the road. With all those people in 3 different cars it wasn't hard to leave someone behind. That someone was Fred. Fred had lagged behind and didn't realize his entire family had left him. His parents assumed he was in the other car and the other 2 cars assumed he was with his parents. After about 15minutes they realized Fred was not in the car and turned around. When they pulled up Fred was sitting outside the store crying. His parents felt TERRIBLE. Everyone else was laughing at him. To make up for "forgetting Fred" his mom went inside the store and bought him a COCA-COLA BODY PILLOW.

Fred has slept with the Coca-Cola body pillow every night since then. It's his "stuffed animal."

I liked his body pillow better than my pink body pillow. His was actually a pillow that felt cool on my skin when I would sleep at night. Mine was felt material and annoying. Our sleeping routine is that I'm lucky to get body pillow for a few minutes. Somehow Fred will weasle the pillow out of my arms, roll over, and fall into a deep slumber. He has to have it. If his house was on fire, his body pillow would be the first thing he'd grab.

Tonight I received a terrible text from Fred:

"Cooley ate my body pillow."

((Cooley is his room mate's dog))

I replied with,

"Oh my god, are you going to be okay?"

He said,

"I don't know yet, I'm still in a state of shock."

Have you had something that you've held onto for a long time?

R.I.P. Coca-Cola Body Pillow

REALITY TV

I'm 24 years old and I'm still obsessed with reality television. Last night I found myself watching repeats of Keeping Up With the Kardashians and Kourtney&Khloe. Even though I've already watched the repeats before I can't seem to pull myself away. I think Kourtney is gorgeous and when I'm watching the show I'm admiring her outfits, her hair, her makeup and her post-baby body. I am jealous of her life. I want to be a Kardashian - not a HALL. Khloe's funny and I like her a lot, but I think I relate to Kourtney the most on the show. She's in a relationship with Scott Disick that is both good and bad. I've been in a relationship like that before. She's also keeps to herself like me. Khloe is very outspoken and not afraid to express her opinion - most of my friends are like this. When Khloe yells at Kourtney about Scott I know exactly how Kourtney feels. Not that people yell at me about my boyfriend. I know how it is to have someone loudly express their opinion to me and my reaction is to shut it out or walk away.

My friend asked me yesterday on g-chat to pick who I would want to Fuck, Kill, or Marry out of the Kardashians. I responded with: Kim, Khloe, and Kourtney. It got me to thinking why do we care so much about this family? Bruce is actually the only STAR in the family (he was an Olympic athlete). Kim is known for her sex tape and nobody else in the family has done anything spectacular (except marrying celebs) or being the children of the father who was one of the attorney's who represented O. J. Simpson.

Eitherway, I'm still obsessed with Kourtney. She makes being a mother look easy (compared to the teenagers over on TEEN MOM) and she's motivation to stay in shape after having a baby! I'm nowhere near ready to start a family but I'm always telling my boyfriend, "Ew, I'm not letting myself go. I want to look good for you forever!" We're coming up on our 3 year anniversary in October and I'm still concerned about staying in shape and looking good for him. Yes, he loves me for me. He doesn't care if I'm in a t-shirt and no makeup, but I do. Him and I were both very active throughout HS and College. Now that we're working 40+ hours a week we don't have time to stay as active. Even though I go to the gym and he has softball once a week - it's hard work. I guess my motivation is watching Keeping Up With The Kardashians (minus using the Quick Trim).

Even though I know reality telivsion isn't reality - then why do I try to conform to what I'm watching?

HELLO BLOG, I'VE MISSED YOU

Wow! The last time I blogged was May 11? It's been over 3 months but Sunday night I had an overwhelming feeling come over me and I just wanted to write. My friend Denise has helped me out with my blog because I am not HTML savy. I promised her I'd start blogging again. I've always been nervous about what to write or how to explain what I feel. Especially when I read Denise's blog and others. They can easily open up and their lives seem so much more exciting...more mature than mine. That's why I'm just going to write what I know and how I feel and I'm not going to worry about what other people think of me.

With that said,

Today at work I started thinking about how fast summer has gone by. Before long it's going to be September.My social calendar is booked until the beginning of November! Between weddings, visiting friends, concerts, and Fred's birthday I am never in Richmond anymore. I'm going to the lake this weekend and hopefully next weekend. It feels weird because I haven't been at all this summer. I use to go all the time, but now that I'm working or spending most of my time with Fred in Arlington, I just haven't had time. I remember the days when I didn't have a job and all I would do is layout at the pool or go to the beach most weekends. The only beach I experienced this summer was Florida. My parents were in OBX at least 4 different times this summer. Man, I am growing up.

Even though I'm not looking forward to the warm weather leaving, I am looking forward to: the holidays, comfy sweaters, starbucks (Pumpkin Spice!), and 2010 wrapping up. I'm also looking forward to some upcoming Bridgewater reunions. Fred and I are going to visit The Holman's the end of September. Then in October a few Bridgewater girls and I are flying down to Atlanta to visit Jessica and the end of October Marianne is hosting a halloween party! I can't wait! Just thinking about fall makes me remember all of my favorite Bridgewater memories. College was the best time of my life. I have great memories and I made the best friends. I'm looking forward to making many more memories with these people. Everyone is growing up so fast! It's crazy to think that people are getting married AND have babies right now!

I wonder when all of that is going to fall into place for me...

A-R-L-I-N-G-T-O-N

I've made up my mind. I'm moving to Arlington....in a year.

Everyone keeps hassling me on moving out and doing this and that but I don't want to. Everyone keeps saying that I'm stupid for staying at home or I need to move out now because I'll never grow up but something inside of me keeps saying nooooo wait it out. Moving in with friends would be fun but I know I would get frustrated just like I did at school. I lived with 6 of my closest friends and by the end of the semester I could only deal with 2. I don't want to ruin that.

I know there's going to be a lot of changes when I move but I have a year to sort those out.

It's a good and bad thing when your parents pay for everything. I don't pay rent, I don't pay my phone bill, I don't pay my car insurance....but now I'm going to start. I start full time at the lawfirm TOMORROW and I'm going to take these next few months to find out where my finances fall.

I'm also getting a new car. I was dead set on the Ford Escape but after much searching my dad and I think the THE JUKE is the best fit for me. It's Nissan's SUV that comes out in August. I can't wait! I'll have a reliable car...more room...and more space for moving and roadtrips to visit friends.

Even though I'll be at home for 1 more year I think I can do that.

If Fred and I have made it this long long distance I think we can do it.

I'm so happy that he's been supportive in my decisions and has never once made me feel forced into moving to Arlington. I want to. I love it up there and I love the friends I've made. Plus I think it's the next big step in Fred and I's relationship. I need to be closer to him. I miss him. I miss him when I'm in Richmond. I miss him when I'm around other couples and he's not there. I miss him being a part of my everyday life. We were together every single day at Bridgewater and sometimes it can be very frustrating seeing him every weekend or every other weekend.

I hope all goes as planned.

I hope I find a good job and I hope I can make it on my own.

I hope nobody makes me feel bad anymore for making this decision. It's what I want. I'm tired of people questioning my decisions.

ORANGE

After work today I am driving to ORANGE COUNTY VIRGINIA to visit my friend Katie and have another Bridgewater reunion!! I always look forward to spending time with these girls. The rain has stopped so tonight will be dedicated to dancing, singing, cornhole, drinking, being silly and staying up late gossiping.

So hurry up 5'oclock!

Michael Buble

I'm listening to Michael Buble right now (rhe song EVERYTHING). I lovvvvve him. I was going to tickets for my mom to see him when he comes to Virginia but he's going to be playing at the Richmond Coliseum which is the worst venue to see concerts at. I hope he comes back soon. His voice is so smooth and refreshing.

I haven't talked to Fred all day and I'm getting restless. I've been missing him a lot lately and when I don't talk to him I get really ancy. I feel more comfortable talking to him before I go to bed or during the day. I know Fred doesn't feel this way at all when I don't talk to him. He is perfectly happy being wrapped up in video games or watching sports with his buddies. I'm not saying I have to talk to him all the time. I just like hearing from him.

I dunno if Michael Buble is putting me in this mood, it's my anxiety, the rain, or early PMS signs. HMMMM....

10K

This morning I participated in the Monument Avenue 10K for the 2nd year in a row. It felt so good to cross the finish line with hundreds of strangers cheering me on! For those of you who don't know a 10k is 6 miles long. This race happend to be an exact 6.2 miles. Last year I did not train for the race and my body punished me by not allowing me to walk for the next few days after the race. BUT this year I've been going to the gym and jogging on the tread mill more and more. The other night I ran 3 miles and didn't even feel out of breath! I was so proud of myself considering that I've fallin out of tennis and the active lifestyle I once had. Recently though I've been starting to miss tennis (probably because of the warm weather and pretty days we've been having) and the great shape that I was once in. It's crazy running into old friends or seeing friends on facebook who have gained so much weight over the last few years. I just don't want that to be me. My dream would be to look like Jennifer Aniston when I'm 40 but I know that won't be the case. However, I can live an active life and stay in shape for me. Summer's right around the corner and I want to look good in my bikini and ofcourse for Fred so that his eyes do not wander.

I am not sure what time I finished the race in yet but I'm hoping to continue doing the 10K every year and knocking off my time even if it's only by a few mintues. Even though my legs are sore right now I feel GOOD about myself. I was able to go to the gym every night the other week but now that school has started again I'm only able to go tomorrow and Monday since I'm leaving for Fred's friday after work. Ideally I would like to hit the gym every night but that won't be able to happen until MAY. I just got to get rid of these huge thighs that I have.

DRIVING

I love driving home from work with the windows down, the sun still in the sky and my country music turned up loud. Hurry up MAY so I can be down with school FOREVER and spend my weekends in Arlington and with my friends AND NOT studying.

CONTENT

I got to see Ashley before she left.... yes that was all I wanted.

I wish we could have spent more time together
I wish she hadn't brought her boyfriend
I wish we could haven't opened up to each other more

But she seems happy. So becaues of that, I'm happy.

Here are the lyrics to one of my favorite songs written by John Mayer - WHEEL. I think it fits the mood for how I feel right now.

People have the right to fly

And will when it gets compromised

Their hearts say "Move along"

Their minds say "Gotcha heart"

Let's move it along Let's move it along

And airports see it all the time

Where someone's last goodbye

Blends in with someone's sigh

Cause someone's coming home

In hand a single rose

And that's the way this wheel keeps working now

That's the way this wheel keeps working now

And I won't be the last

No I won't be the last,To love her

And you can't build a house of leaves

And live like it's an evergreen

It's just a season thing

It's just this thing that seasons do

And that's the way this wheel keeps working now

That's the way this wheel keeps working now

And you won't be the first

No you won't be the first

To love me

You can find me, if you ever want again

I'll be around the bend

I'll be around,I'll be around

And if you never stop when you wave goodbye

You just might find if you give it time

You will wave hello again

You just might wave hello again

And that's the way this wheel keeps working now

That's the way this wheel keeps working now

You can't love too much, one part of it

I believe that my life's gonna see

The love I give

Return to me

I believe that my life's gonna see

The love I give

Return to me

I believe that my life's gonna see

The love I give

Return to me

I MISS MY FRIEND.

I met Ashley in college. We didn't become friends til halfway through our freshman year because I thought she was weird and she thought I was a bitch. After dressing up for St. Patrick's Day with our friends on the 3rd floor of Dillon....Ashley and I were inseperable. We roomed together for the next 3 years and her and I went through A LOT together. Ashley knew me better than anyone else and she was always there to listen. Even though Ashley took over our closet and minimal space with her shoes, clothes, purses, I'll never forget the nights we stayed up til 2 in the morning talking. Her car was covered with cd's I had made and we would drive around Bridgewater with the windows down singing at the top of our lungs. I miss that. Junior year she saved my life from a lot of things. I don't think anybody else would have done what she did for me in that moment. We turned 21 together, we danced til we were sore at Main Street and Highlawn, we kissed a lot of boys, we cried together when relationships ended, she was my DD, my makeup artist, my bestfriend. By senior year we couldn't wait to graduate. She had a steady boyfriend and was gone most weekends. I think we were both getting tired of living in such tight quarters that we argued every now and then but Ashley was still there. I remember one night she collapsed from problems with her thyroid I had to be carried out of the room by the boys next door because I was sobbing. I thought she was dying. She had been there for me through so much I didn't want anything bad to happen to her. Ashley was always taking care of me. She was my Mom. I don't know how I would have made it through college without her.

Even though Ashley and I both live in Richmond we rarely saw each other after graduation. Our schedules always conflicted or we were busy with our boyfriends. We still managed to talk and every time I did see her I was excited. We would always talk about "Remember at Bridgewater when..." Since that time I don't see Ashley as much. I miss her. I guess it's both of our faults but when I'm free she's not free and vice versa.

I haven't seen Ashley since October.

Yesterday was a really emotional day for me.

Ashley's birthday is the day before Valentine's Day. Last year I was able to take her to lunch for her birthday but this year I was going to be out of town visiting my boyfriend. I called her the day before her birthday and left her a voicemail. I didn't hear back. I called her the next week to see how her birthday went. I didn't hear back. I've called Ashely a lot but I have never been able to speak to her. I get frustrated because I miss her.

I woke up yesterday to a TEXT message from Ashley telling me she's moving to Georgia permanently on Tuesday (with her new bf, which is another story in itself). Keep in mind I've been trying to call Ashley for the longest time and all she can do is send me a text message saying she's moving and if I'm free to come to her going away dinner. How do you tell someone you've been friends with for so long that you're moving in a few days through text message. She didn't even give me a warning. I don't think she's told anyone else yet. Lately Ashley has been keeping to herself, avoiding our group of friends and shutting herself off. I had no idea she was planning on moving to Georgia. Or she was planning on moving there in 5 days.

I cried. I won't be able to go to her "going away dinner" next Tuesday because I'll be at a John Mayer concert. I texted her back (since that's the only way she likes to communicate now) saying that I'm free Sunday. I'm hoping she gets back to me and I can talk to her, see her, and get a picture with her before she leaves. But I'm so scared she's going to be busy and we won't be able to. I called our friend Kara yesterday crying because I know that when Ashley leaves I problably won't hear from her for a long time. She is living in Richmond now, 15 minutes away from me and doesn't talk to me. What's going to make her want to talk to me all the way from Georgia. I don't want to lose her as a friend.

As a friend I support her and I'm happy if moving to Georgia is what she wants and what she needs to do figure out her life. I would have just liked a little more warning, or I would have liked her to call me and talk to me about this awhile ago if this is something she's been thinking about for awhile. I don't know. A lot of emotions go through me when I think about Ashley and the memories we shared together and the fact that she's moving so far away. It hurts. I just hope that I can see her and tell her how much she means to me before she leaves next week.

Here are a couple pictures of Ashely and I from over the years

WAITING

Fred said he was going to be here at 11.

It's 1:35.

Fred is always late -- we're never on time for anything.

He said he lost his glasses this morning.

He found them at 12.

He should be here in the next few minutes

.............AND thennnnnnnn we're finally going to Charlottesville!!!

I can't wait to see my friends and ride in the KARAOKE CAB tonight!!!

CHARLOTTESVILLE

This weekend Fred and I are finally going to Charlottesville! The forecast predicts lots of sunshine, but most importantly NO SNOW. We plan on having a cook out Saturday and going out to some of Stu & Denise's favorite bars. I can't wait! We've been planning this for so long and plus I love Charlottesville. It's such a beautiful city. The last time I was in Charlottesville was for Denise's bachlorette party. My friend Kara and I rode up together and we both forgot HOW pretty and how MUCH we miss the mountains. Both of us realized how we took advantage of the beautiful scenery driving back and forth from college to Richmond.

I miss the mountains and I miss my friends.

((Virginia mountains))

Last weekend my college friends and I finally reunited! All of us live so far apart that when we do see each other we don't know what to do except act crazy, drink alcohol, take pictures and usually pick on me. Even though my college buddy and one of my bestfriends, Kara lives 20min from me we still hardly see each other (due to terrible scheduling). So last weekend was awesome seeing everyone and just being happy we were all together.

As I look out my window right now the sun is shining bright and I'm looking forward to this weekend. Some people might think this is weird but I love "driving" when the weather is nice and I can have my sunroof open and my music blaring. I hope the weather is perfect on Saturday.

Ecstatic

Erin, Emily,ME, & Gf

This weekend is going to be so much fun.

((Even though Daisy is dying and I'm going to have to risk my life driving the OLD honda))

Tomorrow I'm reuniting with my favorite girls from Bridgewater

Katie, ME, GF, Kara

Which include: Gina, Denise, Kara, Nicky, Marianne, Emily, JBUCK, Sharon, Katie, Erin

I can't wait to see them! I'm always laughing and having the best time whenever we're together.

BUT Saturday I'm going to see the love of my life {John Mayer} !! He hasn't toured since 08. I'm excited to hear songs from Battle Studies and the rest of his 3albums. Plus he's going to look so sexy. Aimee I got perfect seats (as close as we could get to the stage on the floor). Hopefully he'll spot ME in the crowd and ask him to go on tour with him and marry him. Sorry Fred!

I wish it was tomorrow already.

You Really Got A Hold On Me .

Listening to She&Him and daydreamin'

I'm looking forward to seeing my favorite part of Bridgewater this weekend

I also miss my lover.

Love.

Fred and I just celebrated our 3rd Valentine's Day together. Even though I woke up hungover and grumpy on Sunday...Fred still managed to make me feel pretty and sexy. We ended up going to dinner with his parents where Fred surprised me with a pair of DIAMOND EARRINGS! They are beautiful. I can't stop staring at them. I'm so lucky to have such an amazing Valentine. The night before we had gone to see DEAR JOHN (I loved it, Fred hated it). Afterwards we got drunk, watched the olympics, and went dancing. Perfect.



I hope he stays my Valentine forever.

Ew.

Ugh. I can't believe it's February....before long it will be summer and I'm so out of shape. I feel so gross and fat. My thighs are huge and I just look gross naked. From here on, I'm going on a diet and I'm gonna try to start going up to Burkwood more. I usually like to go when I have a free day in the mornings but now with school and work I never have time. Plus, I'm never motivated to go home when I get home at 6 in the evening. If I was really dedicated I guess I could wake up and go to burkwood at 6 AM --psh. Eitherway I'm just really disgusted with myself right now and I need to be in better shape. I miss tennis and I miss how active I was when I played. (too bad the deuche bag coach at Bridgewater made me hate the sport to the point that I quit).

I need to get in shape. BAD.

Considering I just saw this picture of my arch-enemy the other night......

((I wanna look like THAT when I'm 40))

I also bought some sexy lingerie with my VS card Fred got me. Too bad I'm embarassed to wear any of it for him, because I don't look as good as the models. When I put it on I just look frumpy and cellulitey. Ughhhhhhhhh

I'm losing weight and getting toned.

Starting tomorrow, I plan on getting in shape and looking like Jennifer by summer.

NO EXCUSES THIS TIME.

SNOW PICTURES

even though I hate the snow, my dog Drake lovvvvves it. i love watching him play in the snow with his football. even though i haven't been in the best of moods lately because of the storm, Drake always makes me smile and laugh. i thought you might enjoy some pictures of him from these last 2 weekends

(Ready for my walk)

(Drake and I weathering the storm)

(Eating snow & playing with his football)

I HATE COLD WEATHER

this snow is really starting to bum me out. if it snows next weekend and RUINS valentine's day weekend with fred, I will cry. Speaking of which I have no idea what to get fred. I'm already spending $170 on the country mega ticket this weekend and maybe more morning for Michael Buble tickets (a surprise for my mom for mother's day).

what do I get the guy i'm head-over-heels in love with for our 3rd Valentine's Day together??

thinking about this makes me miss him EVEN more considering the snowy weather is keeping us apart. hopefully this will be the last big snow storm and blue skies and warm weather will be heading our way very very soon.

I miss

Fred, summer, tailgating, friends, roadtrips, being tan, sundresses & rainbows

((some friends and I tailgating this summer))

SNOWED IN

Well the weatherman was right. Richmond got about a foot of snow and this ruined my weekend plans to head to Charlottesville. I've been looking forward to this weekend for awhile now, so when Fred called to say the roads were too bad for him to drive him - I almost cried. However, I'm kinda glad it snowed because it gave me a chance to relax, catch up on work, and spend time with my family. My cousin came to work on Wednesday sick, and sure enough Wednesday afternoon I was already coughing and not feeling so hot. I have been taking medicine since then but yesterday I was feeling even worse. Not only was I coughing non-stop, I was going through a box of tissues every hour. I'm sure Denise and Stu would not have appreciated my sickness. Luckily, everyone's free next weekend - so we're going to make a second attempt to visit our friends. I'm even going to an Amos Lee concert with the girls. I've never heard/seen him before but I'm sure it'll be fun. Plus I know Fred & Stu will enjoy having "man time"

As I'm writing this I'm laying here wrapped up in my snuggie watching Drake having a BLAST in the snow. He is bouncing up and down and rolling in it. Even though I've been a grinch about this snow this weekend, he's loving it. My mom won't let me go outside because I'm sick, but she's been taking a lot of pictures. I'll have to upload some pictures of him on here later. He's my little man.


Being snowed in has given me time to think about a lot of things. Yesterday a friend of mine, Desmond, was laid to rest. Even though I wasn't able to attend the funeral, I did attend the viewing Friday night. It was really hard and confusing to see him in the casket while everyone was telling so many wonderful stories about him. I hope that I never have to go to another funeral like that for one of my friends. He will be truly missed.
I'm finally signing up for the Ukrops 10k. I am not running this year. I'm doing the walk/jog heat with my mom and my friend Rachel. I feel lazy and fat and I really want to get back into tennis. I watched some of Miss America last night while I layed on the sofa with a box of tissues. I am so not beach-body ready. If only the weather was warmer, I'd get motivated to workout. I saw Target had bathing suits out the other week--eeek.

Hopefully this next week goes by fast and I finally kick this cold!!!!

GO GO, GO AWAY SNOW

Tomorrow Fred and I are supposed to be driving to Charlottesville to visit Stu & Denise. They have been friends of ours since college and we celebrated their wedding with them in October. SINCE Christmas, Denise and I have been planning this weekend but now the weatherman is calling for SNOW ...and a lot of it. Even my parents think I am crazy for attempting to go to Charlottesville tomorrow. My dad keeps saying, "it's going to snow a foot" <-------shutup.

I am NOT happy about this!

((here is a picture of our lovely friends on their honeymoon))

aren't they cute? too cute.

Today at work everyone kept talking about how "excited" they were about the big snow headed our way. I felt like the grinch when everyone asked me if I was excited, and I would say "No, I hate it because I can't drive in it!"

Luckily, Fred just bought a truck last weekend. A pretty big one with 4wheel drive. I told him we have to go to Charlottesville... you have a truck now! If I wake up in the morning and snow is blocking our travels to Stu and Denise's humble abode I'm going to cry. I want nothing more than to drink, eat, and spend time with good friends!

So go away snow!!!

Professional and John Mayer SHIRTLESS!!

Last week I started my paralegal internship at my cousin's law firm, Burnett&Williams. I'm usually really nervous before I start new things. I get nauseous and have butterflies in my stomach, but for some reason I woke up and wasn't nervous at all my first day! My cousin, well my mom's cousin, so he'd be my 2nd cousin -- his name is JIM. Jim has 4 other offices around Virginia, but I'm working at his Midlothian location. It's small ....and I like it that way! I'm also comfortable knowing that he is there to guide me along. His lawfirm is solely personal injury, so right now I'm doing the not so exciting stuff, "medical chronologies." Basically I am putting together all the medical reports and summarizing all the medical terminology. BORING! However, I get to go to court with him next week and he's going to have me calling witnesses, interviewing them, sending out subpoenas etc. I'm pretty excited... I really want to do well since I've spent the last 2 years studying this stuff! I go in every Monday/Wednesday/Friday and I'm looking forward to these next few months. Cross your fingers he offers me a job!

Nowwwwww that I'm working in a law office means I have to start looking more PROFESSIONAL. This past weekend I spent A LOT of money in Anne Taylor Loft. I ended up getting an Anne Taylor card because I bought some pants, tops, and a SUIT. Wow. Speaking of suits, I did not realize how EXPENSIVE THEY ARE! Luckily I got the jacket on sale this past weekend but when I went to The Limited to look for a suit, the jacket itself was $158!! WhO pAyS thAT?! Even though I was sick and tired of trying on clothes by the end of the day, I had fun getting some new business like apparel.

If my friends saw me at the office, they would probably tell me how grown up I look.

Well enough about my internship. I came home and was rushing to get to class only to find out it was canceled. Luckily I checked my e-mail before I walked out there. But then something else caught me on perezhilton.com ................................

JOHN MAYER IS ON THE COVER OF ROLLING STONE!!!!!!!!!!!!

today is exactly 1 MONTH until I get to see him in DC. The last time he toured was 2008 soooooo I'm super excited. I'm also going to see him in Charlottesville March 16th with my parents. Our seats are AWESOME --maybe he'll even spot me in the crowd and have his body guard escort me back to his bus =)

this picture made my day so I hope you all enjoy!

A NEW YEAR

I'm so excited for the new year!

I start my internship on Wednesday and I'll be done with school (until I get my Masters) in May!

Even though my final semester of school is starting up I'm looking forward to road trips, warmer weather, blogging more, and spending another wonderful year with my boyfriend.

This past weekend I accompanied Fred to his company, Premium's, christmas party! I knowwwwwww christmas was last month but the beer distributors are so busy over the holidays they have their annual christmas party in January! We had great time and stayed at a pretty fancy hotel. We danced all night, ate great food, and enjoyed being with friends!

We stayed in Manassas instead of Fred's house in Arlington. I hadn't seen his parents or sister in a long time... so it was nice to go out with them and play wii all weekend!

Here are some pictures of Fred and I dressed up Saturday night!

----sorry if you can't tell my hair is short. I straightened it for the evening, but when it's curly it's up to my ears!!