FEELS LIKE HOME

Most weekends when I'm not at home, you can find me at my second home - The Duquette's. With an hour and twenty minutes seperating us, I usually make it a long weekend when I drive up to see Fred. I usually leave early around noon on Friday's and don't return home til Monday mornings. There's something about soaking up as much time as I can with him when I visit. Most Fridays we go out for dinner & drinks with his parents and their friends or have our "date night" before hitting the town. Most people would probably think going out for dinner and drinks with his parents annnd parents friends would be boring. BUT, both Fred's parents are smart and fun to be around. His dad is a jack and coke guy while his mom is a wine drinker. His parents just recently celebreated their 37th wedding anniversary and they're still madly in love with one another. That's what I want.




His family has been great and I see where Fred gets his personality and looks from. Fred and his family are Florida natives. They moved here when Fred was in middle school. So I've only met one cousin and his older sister Val, who lives in Florida. I'm hoping I'll be able to make a trip down to Florida with Fred and meet the rest of his family one day...and maybe catch some rays on the pretty Miami beach.

This past weekend with the Duquette's was particularly fun, because they took me golfing. Fred and his dad are big golfers. His dad is always watching the golf channel, and when the weather is nice he's always on the links. Besides the golf class I took at Bridgewater, I have no experience whatsoever. Even though Fred's taken me to the driving range a couple of times....I was not prepared for the 18 holes we played Saturday morning. His dad had set a tee-time for 10:04 AM Saturday morning. I dressed in my preppy golf gear and was ready to impress everyone with my Tiger Woods skills, but that turned out not to be the case. After I could barely hit the ball on the first hole, I could tell Fred was getting mad. I forgot how competitive Fred is when it comes to sports, games, or ANYTHING. After the first 10min Fred had me so flustered and worked up I didn't even want to play anymore. I'd rather hear him laughing with me or telling me, "keep trying babe." But then finally ...I started to be able to hit the ball and he lightened up. After that the rest of the day was smooth sailing. I had a blast spending the day golfing with Fred and his parents. I love trying something new, and doing something active like that with my boyfriend. After 4 hours of golf (who knew it took 4 hours to play 18 holes) we swung by GLORY DAYS for some wings and beer. Perfect ending to the perfect day.

The rest of the weekend was followed by dinner with his parents, a lazy day on Sunday, cleaning his car, dinner date, and snuggling. I couldn't have asked for anything better. I'm glad I got to try something new with Fred and his family.

BUTTERFLIES

Well the butterflies are gone. I had my job interview this morning at 930. I think everything went well and I'm hoping for a call back for the second interview. The only reason I can think of that they wouldn't hire me is because there's one day during the week where I would have to leave work an hour early for class. Hopefully they will be able to work around it...but whoa whoa whoa, I'm thinking way to ahead. They have to call me back first and I have to dazzle them with legal knowledge and skills. I just wish my classes were done with. My friend Denise said to me yesterday that I should enjoy being job-less. Yes, it may have its perks; you can sleep in, stay up late, go on vacation but on the other hand you're BROKE and feel WORTHLESS. Luckily I still have Ukrops on occassions but that can't last forever.

My long-term goal is to finish my classes by next Spring and land a full time job. After that I would love to start acting like a grown-up and maybe moving into my own place. Ideally, I would love to move closer to Fred. Even though the drive from Richmond isn't too bad, it's still too far for us to see each other as much as we'd like. I've grown up in Mechanicsville and I love it, but I would also love to step out of my bubble and be on my own. I know most of my friends would say that I could never live on my own because my parents have spoiled me. They're right. My parents have spoiled me, but I can learn these things. I'm lucky enough to where I don't have to pay any bills, my mom cooks dinner every night and since I'm poor my parents loan me gas and spending money if I'm going somewhere. I hate it. I want to be able to make money on my own and show everyone that I can DO IT! More importantly, I want to show Fred that I be successful and bring in some dough. He can't be the breadwinner in this relationship forever.

Until then, I'll keep studying hard in my classes and continuing the job search. I know I'll find something soon. I just don't want to have to wait. I wish I could fast forward my life. My dream is to land a great career and live happily ever after with Fred. I hope it comes true...one day.

JOB

So tomorrow morning I have a job interview. I'm terrified. I've applied to so many places on Craigslist, I was shocked when I had a message on my answering machine yesterday saying ALLEN,ALLEN,ALLEN & ALLEN wanted to interview me. They have an opening for a receptionist position...and I desperately want and need the job. I want the job because it would get me one step closer into working in a law setting & I NEED the job because I'm broke. I won't be finished my paralegal classes til next summer and until then it'll be impossible for me to find any paralegal work. Hopefully if I get this job, I will have the chance to show them my skills and let them see how qualified I am. I mean I'm a college graduate. I need a big girl job. All of my friends are working and getting promotions. Including my boyfriend. Fred is working 40+ hours a week and I'm sitting at home doing nothing. I don't want him and everyone else to think I'm worthless. I just want a job.

Because I am so nervous, I have made a list of reasons why they should hire me;
I'm a hardworker, diligient, focused, I work hard to get the job done, I can multi-task and I always put the client first. I have some other things written down, but hopefully if I study my sheet I won't screw up and stutter tomorrow morning when I'm on the spot. I'm also studying the Allen & Allen website now. WISH ME LUCK!